Thursday, December 17, 2015
I have PTSD. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
I have the signs. I have the feelings. I have it.... but I kind of refuse to obey by it because I don't want to be trapped in a diagnose. What if they say "once PTSD always PTSD"? then what? It is kind of like the fact that a bumble bee is too heavy to fly, but since it doesn't know this fact it still flies!
I don't want to have it and I am working very hard not to have it... So I don't even pay attention to the fact that I do have it. Never did and I don't think I ever will. Because if I feed it even a slightest "I don't have PTSD" I will give it energy...
So instead... I focus on love. I must. Love vs PTSD... I choose LOVE! Love will win :)